I Have a Problemo..

For my Bff... They doesn't know..
It's about them..
Well... i've been holding it everytime..

My best friend. Who is always with me but then.. it appear another friend which we both don't really like her and i can't tell you why.. everyone hates her. she always cry...

So i felt a little pity for her so i stop hating her.. then.. we three became BFF..

but still.. in my heart i dun really like her.
She was like... stealing my other best friend.
i don't know.. i felt like.. jealous.

Cause they both knew chinese. they speak the same. i mean.. they speak chinese some that i don't understand. So.. i was like.. left out.

I Felt myself pity but i can't do that. cause i know that they helped me alot.

Like today, they were like telling jokes or secrets which i didn't really listen..
sometimes.. i was concentrating but they keep me cant concentrate..

And .. During Maths. Their favorite subject which is not mine.. so.. they was like concentrate on doing work.. while me.. i leave them alone.

I Can't really say that they both bully me or something. They really did helped me alot and i was touched that i cried last few months.

well.. i always felt left out.
They sometimes complain about me.. well... something serious..i felt like everything they does was perfect. But i did it alone without them..

I Had enough.

All i wanted is.. we 3 to be together. i dun want us to left out.
And one of them.. the one i hate.. was like.. keep forcing me. I Don't like it.
I Really have no choice.

She always say this sentence " Do you two hate me? " or " I Know you hate me. " I Ignored.. cause i'm tired
of it.
Well.. she always talk about her love ones. the person he love. or his ex bf.

She always always always always always have news for me to tell!! I'm tired of it. but i don't care . cause it's normal somehow. but just now every time say ma..

I Just hoped that.. she will never steal my BFF Away. Cause if she does.. okay then, i'll be lonely.
They didn't know this. but they will soon. and if they did. One of them will cry.

I'm so sorry.. I can't hold it anymore.
I'm know i'm saying you guys.. but it's the truth.
I'm so very sorry.
This is the first time i say people. so i felt so bad.. so sorry.

Vanessa x\